Haecceity

But this time I really am! Due to a variety of unpleasant circumstances, work has been insanely busy over the last month, with no sign of it slowing down at all; we’re busy adding servers at a huge rate, but the support burden isn’t dropping on the older servers as we’d expect as they get bedded down and the customers get used to how they work. I think in a lot of cases we’re actually getting hurt by the level of technical support we offer, in that the customers learn that they can do far more - and we’ll help them do it - with their hardware than they expected.
Oh well. The future’s looking promising!
Life itself has been somewhat directionless of late; whether it’s just been work keeping me tired or if there have been other things on my mind I’ve not really been out much since I got back from Australia, and I have a huge backlog of people I need to catch up with RSN.
I’m also single again, which I think has stabilised my mood somewhat but is still not ideal in terms of where I’d like to be with my life. The whole long distance thing really didn’t work for me, and I hate “phone relations” where you spend hours a day on the phone reiterating the same things endlessly, simply because you need contact. We’ll see how this works out.
On the horizon, I need to work out if I can afford to go to DebConf4 or GVADEC(and I have to say, I’m looking forward to seeing what they do for guadec 6 WRT including the number of the conference in the name), or neither. Or both, but that’s pretty implausible. Guadec was more fun last year, but Debconf was so productive it was untrue. One of the big factors is that GVADEC is in Norway (cheap to get to, expensive once there)(and I was there last year for DebConf), but DebConf is in Brazil(insanely expensive to get to), and that would rule.

Like fallen head over heels in love. Fun fun.
To some extent it’s not a big surprise, I’ve been foreshadowing the happy event in my LJ for a while but to actually have spent a whole day with the girl without anyone else - like her ex (who, just to add to the fun, is one of my best friends) - in tow was definitely needed and was goodness.
We got a fair amount of talking done, an awful lot of hugging and holding hands and looking like teenagers generally, and also saw Love, Actually - good film, good laughs, keira knightley mmmmmmmmm, very very soppy - and then had a very hard time letting go of each other for long enough to get the girl on her train home. two hour seperation sucks eggs.
bah.

I think I am cursed. Thomas’ diary entry reminded me that (a) I love the album, and (b) I don’t have it ripped. So I went to correct that mistake. And lo and behold, there’s the case… with no CD in. Bah. That’s the second copy of that album I’ve lost now. Guess a quick trip to the record store will put that right tomorrow.

And I don’t have a clue why - I was in bed ludicrously early last night (long before midnight, for the first time this year ;-)). I think it’s possibly just the sheer emotional stress of the last few weeks - which I promised Edd a full summary of at some point - has taken its toll…
The girl is now beginning, I think, to realise what she’s let herself into - the fact that she will have to move out before any more damage happens to her relationship with Paul is pretty daunting for her, and I can’t really blame her for wanting to try and avoid the issue for as long as possible, but at some point she has to take the step.
Her parents, although somewhat aghast at first (and who can blame them, really) seem to have come round somewhat on the idea and the plan seems to be for her to move in with them for a while before her best friend comes back from midwife training and they can get a flat together…
Very very hard for her though, and I hope we can all get through that ok.
Talking to my folks last night about the whole deal - and that conversation was much easier than I was expecting it to be! - we seemed to agree that my disappearing into the void (or, rather, Australia) for 3 weeks was probably a good thing on the whole, although hard to contemplate from where I’m sat now…
sigh